practicing patience

Patience is the hardest part.

Mistake, accept, different mistake, different accepting.

Learned more yesterday about how I wish to address ambiguity in life and how I will feel if I don't actually articulate that it is there. If I am aware of it, I must address it. Last week I set off on a path toward being able to do do just that. Yesterday, I stumbled, took stock of how it felt. Now I've regained balance, reviewed what I am trying to teach myself, and am walking again. Breaking old thought patterns is difficult but I want to do it.

There have been a bunch of things that I'd been aware of, or that threw up a flag in my brain, that I just didn't address. They've ranged in size from the tiny to the gargantuan. Why I didn't address them at the times, I'll not try to answer right now. But I will take note that those are the things that resound in my mind the most. And those are things I will learn from.

Not sure who if anyone would be reading this, but that's okay. I don't need to know. I'm talking aloud, for I still do that from time to time. I haven't looked at it in quite some time, but I'm officially deleting the Sitemeter. I may still have a few more things to say on this page, but I'll say them only as I feel strongly. And then I will step back and ask myself why I felt to do that. And I'll use that answer to check my course and make sure I'm still going in the direction I mean to be heading.

Slowly, slowly.

Patience.