I've been doing a lot of reflecting. I think I've been learning something.

I sat down to write a profile yesterday and this is what essentially came out. (I've made a few revisions since then.) I didn't want to keep it as my profile but I do want to share it.

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A woman, seeking...

...to establish an equilibrium in the world outside her own mind.
...to leave behind the childish and only retain some of the wonder of the child-like.
...to discover how to make art while accepting its myriad interpretations.
...to discover how to appreciate art while accepting its myriad interpretations.
...to reconcile herself with a wash of feelings about the people she has been or wanted or pretended or seemed to be.
...to separate those selves from what she has created based upon them.
...to find peace with her past arts and artifices.
...to stop forgetting the good and powerful and sincere that was all mixed in.
...to live an authentic self in as many moments as is humanly possible.
...to fully accept the knowledge that ultimately she cannot control how people feel or think of her.
...to forgive herself for the hurts she has caused people she has genuinely cared about.
...to choose her words and actions carefully.
...to find a way to preserve her own sanity and peace of mind while indulging her genuine desire to interact with people.
...to find what redemption there may be in this world while accepting that there may not always be.
...to express gratitude.
...to go forward into life knowing better who she is and aims to be.
...to keep growing.
...to maintain patience in all these processes.

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She knows...
...she makes mistakes.
... she is the only person who can be her and be accountable for her
...she's going to the shelter to rescue a puppy.