To(o) Long
Keep your eyes on me.
Treadmill today. Eyes straight ahead. 4 miles. Left, right, left, right. Keep breathing. Left, right. Stay loose. Left, right. There's that mound of papers to read. Left. Two deadlines I'm behind on. Right. Turn up the iPod. Left right left right left--
That's right. Look here.
Blender. Here's the milk. One cup. Look for the peanut butter. Where could they have moved it? Oh, there it is. Behind the whipped cream. Of course. Tablespoon of peanut butter, scoop of whey, packet of hot cocoa--diet. Adds flavor; adds calcium. Blend on low. Shoot I forgot the ice cubes. Don't want it to be warm. Want--
I want you to see who it is.
Laptop. See if there is any email. There is always email. Respond. Talk mission statements. Production budgets. Grant applications. Revisions. Messages from students. Missed class. Missed a deadline. There's always a calamity. Who is it going to be this semester? Who--
Who it is that makes you feel this way.
Only the second week. Already way behind. Two sets of diagnostic exams. One set of essays. Ought to have them read by now. Ought to have feedback, comments. Organization, style, mechanics. Just so they know what to work on.
Just so there's no confusion.
Treadmill today. Eyes straight ahead. 4 miles. Left, right, left, right. Keep breathing. Left, right. Stay loose. Left, right. There's that mound of papers to read. Left. Two deadlines I'm behind on. Right. Turn up the iPod. Left right left right left--
That's right. Look here.
Blender. Here's the milk. One cup. Look for the peanut butter. Where could they have moved it? Oh, there it is. Behind the whipped cream. Of course. Tablespoon of peanut butter, scoop of whey, packet of hot cocoa--diet. Adds flavor; adds calcium. Blend on low. Shoot I forgot the ice cubes. Don't want it to be warm. Want--
I want you to see who it is.
Laptop. See if there is any email. There is always email. Respond. Talk mission statements. Production budgets. Grant applications. Revisions. Messages from students. Missed class. Missed a deadline. There's always a calamity. Who is it going to be this semester? Who--
Who it is that makes you feel this way.
Only the second week. Already way behind. Two sets of diagnostic exams. One set of essays. Ought to have them read by now. Ought to have feedback, comments. Organization, style, mechanics. Just so they know what to work on.
Just so there's no confusion.
Labels: aurally-obsessed, creative nonfiction, Longing may be elegant but it also hurts like hell, time management or lack thereof, time-management-challenged


20 Comments:
Man does your life seem stressful. You know you could use your cell phone while on the treadmill to multi-task better. Many do it. Also make sure not to turn up that iPod too loud, you could damage your hearing.
You just reminded me why I don't miss that college or learning environment. I had so much stuff running through my head about deadlines. I don't like deadlines. Who would? I mean really, it has the word dead in it. Peace out!
P.S. and don't think I don't notice when you pop in and out of Instant Messaging.
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Egan, At
Thu Feb 09, 11:25:00 AM 2006
It's not me popping in and out. It's my laptop restarting itself. Then me killing everything running so that it doesn't slow down.
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Jill, At
Thu Feb 09, 11:53:00 AM 2006
Aha ... when life gets in the way of living and loving. But doesn't it make the dessert that much sweeter?
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peefer, At
Thu Feb 09, 02:01:00 PM 2006
Wow! I like this post, but I am sorry you seem to have some street from a lot on your plate right now. Hang in there.
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Cheryl, At
Thu Feb 09, 02:02:00 PM 2006
I need a cup of tea now!
Love the style of this :)
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Miladysa, At
Thu Feb 09, 02:21:00 PM 2006
Let's hope so, Peefer, let's hope so.
Thanks, Cheryl. Will do.
Aw, Milady, I always need a cup of tea after your stories... :)
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Jill, At
Thu Feb 09, 02:38:00 PM 2006
Jill is a busy bee, okay...
But don't forget "Who it is that makes you feel this way"!
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ChickyBabe, At
Thu Feb 09, 08:36:00 PM 2006
I've recently decided that I could really use a clone. Clone-Sandra could take care of so much while Sandra 1.0 did better things...like sleep. And hang out in the sun...watch movies...go to the gym...anyway, sounds like you could use a Jill 2.0.
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sandra, At
Thu Feb 09, 08:58:00 PM 2006
CB: as if I could.
Oh, I really could, Sandra! You know where we could get some of those?
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Jill, At
Thu Feb 09, 10:04:00 PM 2006
At last no one can say you can't "multi-task."
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Neil, At
Thu Feb 09, 10:26:00 PM 2006
Okay, I've heard that one before Jill. But Jill, I still think you are great. Jill, what do you have planned for Friday night?
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Egan, At
Thu Feb 09, 11:39:00 PM 2006
Oh i hear ya! Most days i don't even have time to grab a bite to eat. We gotta slow down Jill!!
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Steph, At
Fri Feb 10, 05:10:00 AM 2006
The title: I like it, Jill. Clever. But not too clever.
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Momentary Academic, At
Fri Feb 10, 10:31:00 AM 2006
Phew, I'm stressed out just from reading that! I hope things settle out.
By the way, what exactly were you making in the blender? It sounded a little delicious!
Also, (unrelated) I don't know if you've been watching Spike on Smallville at all...he's been gone for quite a few episodes...but he's coming back soon! And I heard that they're going to make a Spike Movie!!! Just wanted to inform you.
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Kiki, At
Fri Feb 10, 10:37:00 AM 2006
Well, that is the bright side, isn't it, Neil? ;)
Fine, Egan, don't believe me.
Yes, Steph. Time for some retail therapy.
Thank you, M.A. I was hoping it would stay within the realm of cool and not step over into cutesy.
Protein shake, Kiki, nutritious and tasty! (Anyone want to cast me in a commercial?) Oh my God, a Spike movie? Oooooohhhhh...
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Jill, At
Fri Feb 10, 03:40:00 PM 2006
Dear GOD I hate that feeling (unfortunately, I have it way too much).
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Popeye, At
Fri Feb 10, 04:30:00 PM 2006
As soon as someone tells me how to make a Sandra 2.0, I'll fill you in...!
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sandra, At
Fri Feb 10, 06:05:00 PM 2006
I lack the multi-tasking gene, for whatever that is worth--I can't walk and talk on the cell phone at the same time, for instance.
(I wish I could--other folks look so cool when they are doing it--but I literally have to stop walking.)
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Zen Wizard, At
Fri Feb 10, 08:31:00 PM 2006
Jill, I have been watching you for a long time. I like how you move. Please be good to yourself.
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God, At
Fri Feb 10, 09:18:00 PM 2006
Yes, it does suck, doesn't it, Popeye?
Thanks, Sandra. If any info comes my way, I'll pass it along.
I'm trying to imagine that, Zen Wizard...
Are you there, God? It's me, Jill. And I'm trying. Does a manicure count?
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Jill, At
Fri Feb 10, 11:08:00 PM 2006
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