Monday, January 09, 2006

Typography

My smile. The words I speak.
Veiled. Scrawled.

Playful: "Are you not sure I really exist?"
Because, I swear, I made you up.

Turn the topic back to him. Give the impression that maybe he shouldn't ask.
I want to tell him things. Things he doesn't know about me.

Fear: that if I started, I'd unleash my world. And he would wonder why.

Despite protestations and assurances, eagerness and receptivity, still I can't believe that what he wants to know is me.

Ask me again.

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posted by Jill at 9:15 PM

24 Comments:

  • Don't know the question, but if he doesn't ask, I'll start 'till I find the right one. Whatever it takes to keep you writing.

    By Anonymous Network Geek, At Mon Jan 09, 10:27:00 PM 2006  

  • Who wouldn't want to ask you questions about yourself? I love learning about you, and I'm glad he does too.

    By Blogger Megan, At Mon Jan 09, 11:16:00 PM 2006  

  • And did you make him up? Because if you did, you know he'll ask again and again...

    By Blogger ChickyBabe, At Tue Jan 10, 12:28:00 AM 2006  

  • Despite protestations and assurances, eagerness and receptivity, still I can't believe that what he wants to know is me.

    this, i do believe, is the root of all the world's problems. or maybe just mine.

    By Blogger kat, At Tue Jan 10, 08:49:00 AM 2006  

  • In this post, I hear the sound of one hand clapping.

    No, wait. That was stupid. Hold on. I'll try again.

    Like the first breeze of spring, you...

    No. No. That sucks. Hmmm...

    Is what we do typography, or have we replaced typography? I'm not sure a typologist would lump us in with a typographer, if you catch my meaning. We do italicize. We do that. A writer is to a typographer as... hmmm.... as... hmmm...

    Hello, Jill.

    By Blogger scott, At Tue Jan 10, 10:06:00 AM 2006  

  • I can definitely related to not believing he wants to know me...yeah I get that. I'm glad this one does for you.

    By Blogger Cheryl, At Tue Jan 10, 11:27:00 AM 2006  

  • Thanks Geek, and Megan, (Thanks to you all.)

    No, ChickyBabe, no Blog Fiction here! ;)

    Kat: and perhaps mine as well.

    Yeah, yeah... Hello, Scott.

    I'm glad for me that you can relate, but I wish for your sake that you couldn't, Cheryl.

    By Blogger Jill, At Tue Jan 10, 11:41:00 AM 2006  

  • in code, leave messages, tid bits, pieces of you, encrypted...whoever wants to know will surely make the effort to decipher a code?

    By Blogger a fish on a bycicle, At Tue Jan 10, 11:50:00 AM 2006  

  • You think? I hope so.

    By Blogger Jill, At Tue Jan 10, 12:21:00 PM 2006  

  • Jill, I haven't been commenting lately because I just can't seem to find the right words... (yet I have been reading religiously!!) It seems silly (and redundant) for me to keep saying you are so talented and I enjoy reading your blog! But just so you know, I'm still here! ;)

    By Blogger dasi, At Tue Jan 10, 12:52:00 PM 2006  

  • Thank you, Dasi. I appreciate that. I'm happy to have you read. No worries if you have no comments.

    By Blogger Jill, At Tue Jan 10, 01:21:00 PM 2006  

  • I think I am beginning to see a common thread. It is a light blue-green cotton silk blend in a #28 needle all set to sew that big flingin flangin hole you just shot in my imaginary you. Man oh man (or more appropriately - woman oh woman) am I all confused. I did not think that Super-Heroes had fear or insecurities. Or is this a fictional piece?
    If not, you have no reason to be afraid. Fling it all out there. If it scares em away, then they would not be man enough for you anyway. Real men don't run away, they embrace and encourage you to grow and be more you than you would ever be alone. Or so I've heard anyway. You pick up a lot when people don't think you can understand the conversation. Kinda like a fly on the wall.
    I like the hello jill stuff. May I start a howdy jill??

    By Blogger lil'bitty, At Tue Jan 10, 02:42:00 PM 2006  

  • You just WISH you could quote the Eagles as well as I do.

    By Blogger scott, At Tue Jan 10, 02:49:00 PM 2006  

  • Fabulous, Jill. I can't articulate much of anything today, but that was fabulous.

    By Blogger Momentary Academic, At Tue Jan 10, 03:06:00 PM 2006  

  • Sorry to confuse you, Lil Bitty. I'd be happy to have you institute a "howdy, Jill" but the trademark on the comment-greetings belongs to that Don Henley wanna-be posting beneath you.

    Take it easy, Scott, or else there might be a heartache tonight, or--I don't know, maybe one of these nights. I figured you more for a Glen Frey kinda man from the very beginning, what with the peaceful easy feeling of all the rest of your comments. Oh no, buster, you can't hide your lyin' eyes. You love those pretty pretty boys that you call friends more than Mr. Tequila Sunrise over yonder in Washington loves the smell of wine and cheap perfume. Go ahead, scream to the blogosphere until hell freezes over what a witchy woman that JillWrites girl is. It don't matter. After the thrill is gone, who'll still be here? That's right, boy. Me. Livin' life in the fast lane. And where will you be? The sad cafe. And you know what? You can never leave.

    That's ok, M.A. Find a rich old man and you don't have to worry.

    By Blogger Jill, At Tue Jan 10, 03:50:00 PM 2006  

  • Giving yourself to someone on that level is par with naked karaoke in my books. At the very least, karaoke in your underwear.

    By Blogger blog Portland, At Tue Jan 10, 04:03:00 PM 2006  

  • Oh by the way, Lil Bitty, I was also rather precocious and picked up quite a bit overhearing conversations no one thought I understood. But you are wise beyond your years. Thanks so much.

    Funny you should mention that, Portland, in some chick magazine I saw a list of random stuff to spice up a girl's life, and on the list was "Coed Naked Karaoke". I ripped it out as a reminder.

    By Blogger Jill, At Tue Jan 10, 04:18:00 PM 2006  

  • Well, 'I can't tell you why', but I will refrain from using the Howdy Jill unless Scott is 'too busy out ridin fences'. Especially if he on 'the seven bridges road' out by 'bitter creek'. 'That takes a certain kind of fool' 'in the long run'. But I digress, if it would upset Scott I would probably just wait for him to 'get over it'. Really, 'most of us are sad' and I would not want to add to the sadness. I mean, I would not want to 'tear a hole in the world' of Scott and Jill. Would that be punishable? I am kinda the 'new kid in town' and I would hate to land in 'teenage jail' (especially since I'm only 4 months old). Basically I'm just 'trying' to learn my way in this crazy world when 'all I want to do is dance'.

    By Blogger lil'bitty, At Tue Jan 10, 04:20:00 PM 2006  

  • I like your post today.

    When I'm interested in someone, I want to learn about them, the good and the bad. I want to hear all the weird little quarks and family ties and silly things they do with their friends. It is what makes them, them. I want to know what makes them tick. What they are into, where their passions in life lie. If I wasn't sincerely interested, I wouldn't take the time to ask how someone is or make an effort to get to know them better. I would see no point for just polite conversation.

    For me, asking someone how they are isn't a polite thing to do. It should be a something you do only when you are seriously interested in their reply and you want to experience a little piece of what life is like for them in their world. What a better way to get to know someone than just asking for the opportunity to do so. :)

    By Blogger DIAMONDKT, At Tue Jan 10, 06:07:00 PM 2006  

  • Wow, Lil Bitty, you are precocious indeed.

    DiamondKT, you are so right. Sometimes my chewy inside oozes out of the cracks in my candy shell--usually when I want something so much, I can't believe it's actually being offered. But once I write it down, I get it under control. (And just hope that it's not too late.) Thanks.

    By Blogger Jill, At Tue Jan 10, 06:24:00 PM 2006  

  • Touche.

    By Blogger scott, At Tue Jan 10, 08:14:00 PM 2006  

  • ;)

    By Blogger Jill, At Tue Jan 10, 10:29:00 PM 2006  

  • For some reason, I keep coming back to this post. I am drawn to something yet I cannot place it... Nice work, Jill! :)

    By Blogger ChickyBabe, At Wed Jan 11, 09:13:00 PM 2006  

  • Thanks, CB. Let me know if I can help.

    By Blogger Jill, At Thu Jan 12, 11:44:00 AM 2006  

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